Read my fan fiction “Bella’s Transformation” before you read this. It will make A LOT more sense.

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My eyes slowly fluttered open. I felt numb, probably from the three days I had spent becoming a vampire. The venom that had run through my veins had burnt like acid and caused me severe pain. It was finally over, and I couldn’t be happier. I closed my eyes tightly, trying to remember the past three days. I had caught bits and pieces of what Edward had been telling me. Only Edward and I were here in the Cullen house, everyone else had left. For both my safety, and for theirs.
I shut my eyes tighter, trying to remember how it was I had become a vampire. Then it came flooding back to me, and painfully too. I had stabbed a knife into my chest, wanting to make Edward hurt for once instead of the other way around. He had rushed to my side, kissed me, and then given me the bite on the neck that indicated my life as a normal human was over: I was starting over as a vampire.
I’d had enough of the past. I opened my eyes to the blurry room, which I instantly recognized as Edward’s. And speaking of Edward…
I saw Edward sitting on the edge of the bed, gazing down at me with concern filling his eyes. I glared up at him for a moment and then rolled over on my other side, facing the opposite wall.
The next thing I knew, Edward had walked over to the shelf that held all his CD’s and kicked it with tremendous force. The wood split and CD’s flew to every corner of the room. One even hit me in the face, leaving a sharp stinging.
“DAMMIT, EDWARD!” I yelled, holding my head in my hands. My ranting did not disturb him, though. He just looked out his window and spoke in a cold, harsh voice I had never heard him use before. “Gosh, Bella! I try so hard to apologize for what I did, and you still give me the evil eye. What more can I do? I saved your life, first off. Even though you didn’t want me to, I couldn’t go through losing you again. While you were in pain, I laid by your side without moving just to comfort you. And I doubt you’ve even looked on the bed and the floor around you.”
He was right: I hadn’t. Just for the sake of it, I looked all around the bed, and covering every inch of the golden bed spread were red rose petals. The same could be said for the floor.
Before I knew that Edward had moved, he was sitting next to me, looking at his hands as he spoke. I went to our meadow and picked every rose I could find. I plucked the petals carefully and kissed everyone one of them before setting them down for you. I really am sorry, Bella. I love you so much, words can’t even begin to explain. Bella, tell me that you don’t love me, and I’ll go away. I couldn’t be without you, but I hurt you so much, you may never feel the same for me as you once did. Tell me that you don’t love me, and I’ll go away right now, and spare you anymore pain. Tell me that you don’t love me-”
I cut Edward off and whispered furiously, “Fine, then! You want me to tell you that I don’t love you? You’ve got your wish! I HATE YOU!”
If I were still human, I would have been crying by now, but the vampire venom seemed to have destroyed my tear ducts. I still felt the familiar stinging behind my eyes, though. I looked away from Edward so that he wouldn’t know how truly devastated I was right now. I heard him breath unsteadily and stand up. He walked to the other side of the room and whispered, “If you ever love me again, I’ll be waiting with my arms wide open.” He took an unsteady breath and quietly closed the door behind him. If I hadn’t known any better, I could have sworn the both of us were crying.